Lack of a Strong Day
Sorry readers, I feel as if I should publish a post because some time has passed.
I'm going "off the cuff" today, so this could potentially be like one of those diary journal entry type of blogs. My apologizes. But it could shape into something.
On a random side note, it's been awhile since I've written a short story. I'm trying to get the creative juices flowing enough to write one for a friend of mine. That's all she's wanted as a gift from me for years, and I haven't done it yet. I'm thinking this year could be the year. So I'd like to write a story for her by Christmas.
That seems so much easier said than done. I know I need a plot or a thesis statement to roll with, but my mind just becomes a blank at that. When I'm driving or not able to write ideas down, I get fabulous scenes and dialogues in my head, but nothing to put down in a "story" with a beginning or an end. I am feeling the writer's block swing at my head. Oh well.
Also, I would just like to add a reality check to my positive quotes. I keep them. I look at them. I try to live by some of them. However, today is not a strong day.
Today is one of those days where I have a hard time keeping myself together, and worst of all, keeping myself together in public. I went back to the stock room to get some boxes for the front of the shop, and I could barely sign out the boxes without tears rolling down my face in front of the stock room boy.
Do you ever have those days? You realize you could be worse off? You realize you could be blind, limb-less, starving on a street corner... Or not even on a street corner, you could be out feeling that way in the middle of nowhere without the countless amount of people walking by ignoring your struggle feeling you probably got there because you're a crack head. Yet knowing things could be worse doesn't really make you feel any better. Have you had these moments or days?
That's what today feels like for me. Today is not an effective mask day. Today is not the day where my emotional mask is on so I can smile and get through the day when dealing with customers. Hopefully it will improve, on more levels than just the surface.
I just try to remind myself that I'm stronger than I once was, and I can make it through anything. I say this. I know it's true. I still hurt.
I feel like the only way through these kind of moments is just to wade through them. Don't ignore it or push it aside, but make it to the other side stronger.... This is much easier said than done.
Good luck to anyone who can relate. I'm rooting for you.
Sorry readers, I feel as if I should publish a post because some time has passed.
I'm going "off the cuff" today, so this could potentially be like one of those diary journal entry type of blogs. My apologizes. But it could shape into something.
On a random side note, it's been awhile since I've written a short story. I'm trying to get the creative juices flowing enough to write one for a friend of mine. That's all she's wanted as a gift from me for years, and I haven't done it yet. I'm thinking this year could be the year. So I'd like to write a story for her by Christmas.
That seems so much easier said than done. I know I need a plot or a thesis statement to roll with, but my mind just becomes a blank at that. When I'm driving or not able to write ideas down, I get fabulous scenes and dialogues in my head, but nothing to put down in a "story" with a beginning or an end. I am feeling the writer's block swing at my head. Oh well.
Also, I would just like to add a reality check to my positive quotes. I keep them. I look at them. I try to live by some of them. However, today is not a strong day.
Today is one of those days where I have a hard time keeping myself together, and worst of all, keeping myself together in public. I went back to the stock room to get some boxes for the front of the shop, and I could barely sign out the boxes without tears rolling down my face in front of the stock room boy.
Do you ever have those days? You realize you could be worse off? You realize you could be blind, limb-less, starving on a street corner... Or not even on a street corner, you could be out feeling that way in the middle of nowhere without the countless amount of people walking by ignoring your struggle feeling you probably got there because you're a crack head. Yet knowing things could be worse doesn't really make you feel any better. Have you had these moments or days?
That's what today feels like for me. Today is not an effective mask day. Today is not the day where my emotional mask is on so I can smile and get through the day when dealing with customers. Hopefully it will improve, on more levels than just the surface.
I just try to remind myself that I'm stronger than I once was, and I can make it through anything. I say this. I know it's true. I still hurt.
I feel like the only way through these kind of moments is just to wade through them. Don't ignore it or push it aside, but make it to the other side stronger.... This is much easier said than done.
Good luck to anyone who can relate. I'm rooting for you.
posted by wonderer @ 9:28 AM
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